I missed watching dikir videos. Ever since i watched this video, i remembered my dikir group, Nilakandi, the srikandi. It was such a memorable competition we had when we were in primary school. We were so nervous that time cause that was the first competition and i heard northland was good. Most of the time! We usually performed at schools and publics.

We played the percussion. Hakimah played rebana, diyana played anak rebana, syafinaz played marakas, i played gong and canang.

Usually tambourine will be played by tukang karut and tok juara. Hazwani, tukang karut and Dinah, tok juara. And 14 people is known as i don't know what. I forgot. I only remembered few of them. Lydia, Aisyah Umairah, Shazwani and etc. Yeah, i remember some of the songs.

Juara
Dalam melangkah setapak demi setapak
Mengharung onak duka ranjau berduri
Bak keluarga di bawa satu teratak
Jinjing bahu bersama dengan satu hati

Karut Modern
[rentak devdas]
Ke sayub bintang berterbangan
Ke sabitah impian minda
Lestari segala warisan ibunda
Ke arah nan merdeka

Dirgahayulah warisan bangsa ku
Merentasi masa tanpa lela
Tiada gementar hubung kalbu
Titah segala mogah dikenang senantiasa

And not forgeting our instructor, abg shafiq, abg asnor and abg alfie. They are kranji ex-student and they are from kelana purba and neng nyno. I got to know that kranji sec had a dikir group last time. They won several competition if im not wrong and most joined kelana purba and neng nyno. Kelana purba still known as the champion till now. I feel proud for them. And shitt, dikir barat website is closed. Can't find them. Only videos. Argh!

I have been telling Yasin bout dikir and he's in love with it. haha. Superb songs.

11:08 PM

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Had my mother tongue oral examination at teck whye sec. I went with my mates, sasha shafa haqidah and haizat. Its like a quick shot. Haha. Haqidah didn't bring her tie, she scared she might not allowed to take the oral. We scared her. haha. Shafa was scared too, her coloured hair.

I thought i did quite well for my oral. I was trembling at first. After everything end, i felt my tension was free. haha. The conversation was just fine.

6:57 PM

Thursday, July 19, 2007

She always think that she's hott?? Dammit. She's ugly bitch. She's a freak. She's so mean and she can never stop insulting people. I don't why. Maybe because theres someone who always give her face. SHe's hypocrite, pampered and always show her poker face.

I terribly hate her though she's ....argh! whatever. She insulted me. Actually, this isn't the first time she insulted me. fcuk! I feel like slapping her bloody face. Count your blessing gerl.

I tried to cool down myself but tears came out. Hah! I find that stupid. What's with the weep?!?! But i was damn hurt and Ridzuan told me to be patient and he said, "Jangan gaduh, saya tau apa saya harus lakukan." I know i could count on him.

And never think you are sophisticated, gerl. Maybe what had happened to you for the past months are by right. You deserved it. Nobody will like you if you continues to be the way you are. Keep my words.

12:54 PM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Its about a week plus she was admitted. And last night my sis was discharged. Everything was on risk. Actually she was not allowed to discharge but bro take the risk. Anything happened to sis, bro are the one who are responsible for it. My sis is a mother of 4. Thats the reason why she wanna went home. She's doing good now. And at the same time, i'm damn happy cause i'm home. I went home this morning from sis house. Its been a week plus i stayed at my sis house. It was so bored staying at sis house. I missed my home, my room, my pillows, my comp, etc. I don't like to stay at someones house though he/she is my family. It's good to be home.

I didn't go to school today as i was having bladder problem. It was pathetic. I was refer to NUH. Gonna have appointment soon. Hate it. And i get to know that Shafa was absent too. Hahaha. Im sure the gundus will thought that Shafa and i planned to escape school today. Argh! Like wadeva. LoLs. Shafa said that she's with the surgery stuffs and i don't know what the hell it is! Lumps or something??

Last saturday, Apit, Sham, Bal, Acap and i went to catch Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. It was midnight show. It was good. Uhuh, violence for sure. Emma Watson is so adorable. Daniel Radcliffe is .....OKay. Voldemort is so ugly. Lols. It was Ralph Fiennes. His face was so scary. He's not even skin head. Hahaha. Not important. Its been quite sometimes i didn't meet Apit. I missed watching the young lions (U18). Sooner or later, his gonna transfer to young lions (U21). It's good. He's body is getting fit and turf. Anyway, good luck for your match at Vietnam. It's gonna be like holidays there. Lucky you!

6:10 PM

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Sorry if it hurts your feelings. Im so freak out. Hope everything is fine. After i talked to you on phone, i felt relieved as i hope everything is gonna be as per normal. What i meant is between me and you. I've never thought this way. Hope you understand. Anw, good luck for your dance. I can't wait to see you guys dance again :]] hahaha.

10:22 PM

Sis Ana had been admitted for the past five days. Again! She took more then she was supposed to. Bodoh nye doctor!! He put my sis life at risk. He should not let my sis hold on to those medicines as she's still under pressure. She could anytime take those pills without thinking. She's still at 'risk for fall' state. But luckily she's fine now. We went to visit her every single day. Quite tiring i could say. haha.

As for today lesson, it went pretty fine except for common test. Was so bored waiting for Mdm Yong (the angguk-angguk geleng-geleng lady) to come and distribute our test paper. Wondering aren't she tired nodding her head every single second!!! Hmm, I wonder??? hahaha.. Today test was okay i guess. After school, Kayu! Not again...

2:32 PM

Monday, July 9, 2007

Sis Ana swallowed 60 pills which she was supposed to take only 1 pill a day when she had a quarrel with bro Fendi due to misunderstanding. No one saw her taking those pills. She's mentally depressed. Dad and bro Fendi send her to NUH where she regularly check-ups, at 12 midnight. They straight off to the emergency room. We didn't followed them to hospital. Mum said that people like her are supposed to be treated with care and love. She might feel alone and thinks negatively.

That night, we can't sleep. We 'ton' at yew tee macd while waiting for news. We really had fun there. Liah was disturbing me when i was on phone with Shafa. She kept singing and mumbling in front of me. She was damn irritating. She made a revenge on me i guess cause last time i did the same thing to her. LoLs. Shafa and i were gossiping bout someone of cos. Oh yeah! haha. I cam-whoring with Liah. Effing good. Hell yeah. LoL.

Liah took a shot when i was acting like a smoker. haha, nak action jek. Of cos i didn't sucked those Viceroy cigarettes. When i put those stick on my mouth, it taste damn bad. FYI, i didn't light up those stick. I felt like vomiting. Smoking isn't COOL at ALL.

12:51 PM

Saturday, July 7, 2007

Shafa, what you've said to me about him on phone yesterday was right. Definitely right! Tapi tak semestinya kita kene balas dengan cara kita. It makes no different. You will not change him. Kita mesti nak ubah kan dier bukan tinggalkan atau ketepikan. You know him. He's easily influence. We just act as if nothing happen but don't have to entertain him. In long term, he will realise. I hope. If this is not gonna work, no choice. Kita boycott dier arr. Kalau dier ade fikiran, dier mesti sedar. If he ask why we've been avoiding him, then we all start confessing. And for now, we look at his tactic first.

For him
What i could say bout you is that, kau tak berfikiran luas. Fikiran kau ni terlalu cetek. You take things easily. We don't care whats your decision. But are you willing to lose your friends?!?! You change ALOT. Kalau nak berubah tu pun memang hak kau. Maybe your level and your association make you change. You didn't realise that you are the one who have been using us.

7:53 PM

Thursday, July 5, 2007

Hey guys, i think this is too much. After i think about it, i ask myself why made a mountain out of a mole hill? I don't think dumping him aside could change anything. This is seriously stupid! As a crew we should motivate each of our members and not putting blames on others or i would rather say not criticizing. Don't go around the bushes and please don't roll your eyes or make funny faces. Quit that, its totally pathetic. Straight off to his face and tell him if you are not interested. That's the best way if guess. Doesn't mean we lose, we have to blame him. Remember one thing, we are all one. Its all 'Adat Pertandingan'. There is always a winner and loser. You can't expect us to win all the time.*For goodness sake* We are not a professional dancer.

"Ni semua 'munafik' la ehk. Tak kan perkara macam gini korang nak besar kan. Jangan la kerana ini kite hilang sahabat." Im not defending him but i was just telling the facts. Well i did make a stupid decision before that but i've made up my mind. I still want this friendship to go on. If you still want it your way, i can't say anything. If you have brain, think twice. Its your choice.

12:10 PM

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

Transformers was awesome. Myself, with the two monkeys, Shafa and Khairil went to catch Transformers last monday. It was splendid. I like the part when they transform and hiding from Sam parents. And they were saying that parents is so irritating. haha. Bumblebee is super cute.

Khairil berbelanja besar sey. haha. Bought a new bag. Dia ingat big arr gitu. haha. His definitely full of nuisance. His always the trouble maker. He told us that going out with us is boring because he is the only guy and i guess he felt left out maybe! Well, we did entertaint him like usual and we never force him to come along. But having him during the outing was great indeed. lols.

Oh yeah, yesterday i knew that mom had the generation of RADEN. Sort of royal or something. It's good but i've to watch the way i talk to mom as she could spell a cursed on me. I experience it.

11:58 PM